I'm Stronger

IN 2011 MY LIFE CHANGED DRASTICALLY, MY SISTER WAS DIAGNOSED WITH HODGKINS LYMPHOMA, WHICH IS A CANCER OF LYMPH TISSUE. SHE UNDERWENT NUMEROUS PROCEDURE'S THAT APPEARED TO HAVE HELPED WITH HER CANCER GOING INTO REMISSION IN NOVEMBER OF 2011. AFTER THE THANKSGIVING HOLIDAY WE NOTICED A SIMPLE COUGH WHICH LEAD HER TO WHAT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A QUICK VISIT TO THE LOCAL HOSPITAL, A VISIT SHE'D NEVER RETURN FROM. DECEMBER 22ND SHE UNDERWENT SURGERY ON HER LUNGS. AFTER HER SURGERY AS SHE LAID IN THE HOSPITAL BED STABLE BUT UNCONSCIOUS, I WOULD ROUTINELY GRAB HER HAND AND SAY, "SACKY, HANG IN THERE, SQUEEZE MY HAND IF YOU CAN HEAR ME", AND SHE WOULD. UNTIL DECEMBER 24TH AROUND 1AM WHEN I WOKE UP FROM DOSING OFF, I TOOK HER HAND FOR A REPLY, AND BEFORE I COULD ASK HER TO SQUEEZE, I NOTICED HER HAND WAS COLD AS ICE.....AT THAT MOMENT I KNEW SHE WAS LEAVING. DECEMBER 24TH, CHRISTMAS EVE, MY SISTER PASSED AWAY. AFTER ALL THE TEARS SHED, THE NIGHTMARE'S, AND THIS EMPTY FEELING THAT STILL REMAINS, I WANTED TO WRITE A SONG TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS FOR MY SISTER'S TIME SHE FACED WITH CANCER, BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHE FELT OR NEITHER COULD COME UP WITH WORDS OF HOW I FELT. ONE MORNING I LOOKED UP AND SAW ROBIN ROBERTS ON TELEVISION, HER HEAD WAS SHAVED BALD, JUST LIKE MY SISTER'S, AND SHE WAS SPEAKING ABOUT FIGHTING FOR HER LIFE. IT WAS THEN THAT I REALIZED MY PROBLEM WITH NOT BEING ABLE TO WRITE A SONG FOR MY SISTER, SHE NEVER TOLD ME WHAT SHE WAS FEELING. INSTEAD OF COMPLAINING OR VOICING HOW SHE FELT, SHE WAS FIGHTING, FIGHTING FOR HER LIFE, FIGHTING TO SEE HER CHILDREN A LITTLE LONGER, FIGHTING FOR ALL AND WHO SHE LOVED AS LONG AS SHE COULD. I DON'T KNOW HOW MY SISTER FELT GOING THROUGH HER FIGHT, BUT I KNOW THIS, MY SISTER'S FIGHT, ALONG WITH ROBIN ROBERTS, AND THE COUNTLESS MEN, WOMAN, AND CHILDREN THAT FIGHT CANCER OF ALL KINDS EVERYDAY OF THEY'RE LIVES, THEY'RE FIGHT....MAKE'S ME STRONGER!