Mapps《Untitled.als》[MP3_LRC]

[00:00.00]90听音乐网 www.90T8.com  [00:00.06]“He just was in so much pain [00:02.49]That he, you know, [00:03.99]took it out on his mom [00:05.40]And took it out on his dad [00:07.47]And took it out on his siblings [00:10.48]But it's almost like he didn't— [00:11.47]he didn't feel worthy [00:13.03]because he was rejected [00:17.31]And I don't know [00:17.94]how anybody feels with [00:20.04]having your whole family reject you” [00:24.61]“He was searching for [00:25.81]whatever made him feel like [00:28.21]he wasn't alone [00:29.98]And that he wasn't so different” [00:32.47]“Well I know that [00:33.13]some people will say that [00:35.26]I treated him maternally, [00:38.78]took care of him [00:39.32]But I like to think that [00:40.19]it was more I was trying to [00:40.88]nurture him rather than take care of him [00:43.01]Trying to nurture [00:43.49]who he was and get him to [00:45.62]let him do his art, [00:46.85]let him do his music [00:47.78]And encourage him [00:48.89]to get better at it [00:49.52]as opposed to trying to stifle him [00:51.02]But also not [00:51.95]trying to be the mom, [00:53.84]but trying to be a nurturing [00:55.22]girlfriend—or friend” [00:58.06]“So who would support him?” [00:59.53]“Me” [00:59.59]“And what would he do all day [01:04.52]while you were at work?” [01:05.93]“It was kind of funny [01:06.53]cause sometimes he would just sit there [01:07.76]and watch TV for four hours [01:08.75]And you'd think [01:09.14]he wasn't creating [01:10.49]But he'd be playing guitar [01:11.42]while he was doing that [01:12.20]or think of stuff later and then, [01:13.85]you know, [01:14.15]and you go out for a few hours [01:14.96]and you come back [01:15.62]and there's a painting on the wall [01:16.70]or there's a big comic strip— [01:17.93]or whatever, [01:19.13]he wrote a song, [01:20.30]you know, recorded it.” [01:29.72]“He hated being humiliated. [01:55.84]He hated it. [01:57.73]And if he ever thought [01:58.42]he was humiliated, [02:00.05]then you'd see the rage come out. [02:03.32]And he was very careful about [02:05.36]and stubborn about [02:07.43]how the way the artwork was presented [02:09.71]because he didn't want to be humiliated.” [02:12.59]“He's home. [02:14.65]And he comes downstairs in his little [02:16.69]whitey tighties. [02:17.41]No shirt. Barefoot. [02:20.20]Up and in his undies. [02:21.97]And uh—hairy dong coming out. [02:24.14]That's another thing [02:24.74]I got sick of looking out. [02:26.06]And he's standing there with this tape [02:27.35]in his hand and I go, [02:27.86]‘What's that?' [02:29.01]And he goes, [02:29.37]‘It's the master cut to my new album. [02:32.11]Can I put it on the stereo?' [02:33.28]And I go, [02:33.79]‘ Yeah! Turn it up. Up, up, up.' [02:35.50]Cause I listen to music really loud. [02:37.00]And I look at him and I go, [02:40.21]‘Oh my god. Oh my god.' [02:42.16]And I almost start crying.” [03:50.52]“It just, every week it got worst. [03:54.92]And sometimes he would come home, [03:56.27]I think to hide. [03:59.11]And it was really bad. [04:00.79]He started getting sores and [04:02.41]losing weight and nodding out. [04:07.96]I was pretty sure he knew I knew. [04:10.97]That I decided one time to [04:12.35]just confront him. [04:15.07]And I went up to his bedroom. [04:18.24]He's sitting on the side of the bed. [04:19.23]And he was crying [04:21.98]because I had just arrived. [04:23.12]And he knew [04:25.00]it was breaking my heart. [04:28.34]That I—and I talked to him about it. [04:30.45]And he burst into tears. [04:31.77]And he was just ashamed." [04:34.81]...end