Jean Grae《My Story》[MP3_LRC]

[00:00.00]90听音乐网 www.90T8.com  [00:20.46]If I could swim a thousand lakes to bring your life back [00:23.05]I write that but infinity can't rewind facts [00:25.89]You are divinity [00:26.64]My primitive mind was struggling [00:28.56]Just to understand the meaning of life forgive me [00:30.91]I never told my mommy I couldn't break her spirit [00:33.64]She always wished her daughter [00:34.89]Extraordinary thinking [00:36.19]So I traveled alone young sixteen [00:38.70]Got in the habit of not stayin' at home [00:40.78]Doing the sad walk like [00:42.02]Bill bixby a dollar fifty [00:43.94]Trips to the hospital so that medicaid could fix me [00:47.07]I couldn't eat sh*t I fainted frequent [00:49.30]On cold floors and I pause and I think peep it [00:52.12]I'm lost my four friends know [00:54.28]And just f**k at the boys' apartments for rent so [00:56.68]I'm all wishin' that it's a dream ending soon [00:59.35]I've actually erased a lot that I've been through [01:01.79]See when the rain comes down [01:04.84]I know it's fallin' for me and only for me [01:11.49]And when the pain comes around [01:14.64]There's nowhere else I rather would be [01:18.93]I know what I've done please forgive me [01:22.74]Now all my bitter homies sayin' that's what men do [01:24.98]Feelin' retarded for seeing partner potential [01:27.63]On top of that the doctors telling me a heart murmur [01:30.29]I can't take it I'm contemplating [01:31.86]A glot burner a cop murderer [01:33.90]I can't be this can't be [01:35.86]The tears streaming and I can't see they lance me [01:38.40]And I'm passin' out and this is just for blood [01:40.66]They had to cover the mass amounts I've had enough [01:43.53]And you don't know what it's like in waiting rooms [01:45.80]And outside their picketing pictures could slay you [01:48.39]Their screamin' victims and spitting till they shame you [01:51.63]I hold my head low and shiver push my way through [01:54.10]They put you in a room where you can change into [01:56.56]Your gown and shower cap shaking as a feene would do [01:59.21]And tha's when you think of leaving fleeing [02:01.27]The building and then they call you [02:02.61]And you hear the call of your children [02:04.29]They count down from ten now [02:06.03]You wanna stop 'em [02:06.78]But you say it in your head your out for the cut [02:09.84]Then you wake up in another room with plenty others [02:12.19]They call it recovery you're thinkin' we ain't mothers [02:14.78]And then prescription pills written a scrip with chills [02:17.45]An understatement you're dressed but you're naked still [02:20.04]And your brain won't think straight [02:21.93]Wait can't finish this [02:23.98]See when the rain comes down [02:26.93]I know it's fallin' for me and only for me [02:34.27]And when the pain comes around [02:37.00]There's nowhere else I rather would be [02:41.17]I know what I've done please forgive me [02:45.64]I kept it bottled up my parent's found the pills [02:48.11]Screaming god what have you done [02:49.35]Cried till I snotted blood then got a gun [02:51.44]My temper ran quick tho from the thought [02:53.45]Then the worst I was caught in the same place [02:56.11]A year later for me that's when hatred started [02:58.82]My faith martyred I've dated a father [03:00.75]But farther then I moved on [03:01.96]Years past the guilt's worse [03:04.13]And it builds till your heart' smashed [03:05.88]Then I miscarried 22 age [03:08.00]I was headed to a breakdown [03:09.54]Swallowed up some pills and I laid down [03:11.43]I was a failure at that too bailed from the rap [03:14.25]Then but fate took me back in [03:15.84]Sin is a tattoo my fingers attached with [03:18.47]Twenty seven with three kids [03:20.16]That I never met [03:21.25]What if I was catholic wonder if they hate me [03:23.69]Thinking how their mother could ever murder [03:25.28]Well take me hell [03:26.62]To the depths where the brimstone [03:27.94]Chokes me constantly [03:29.46]I gave a monstacy [03:30.79]How could I possibly correspond with god [03:33.18]When I gave the authority to end that life [03:36.79]But it's never over even if we have a child [03:39.78]They coulda had a brother or sister or both [03:42.33]I'm thinking about another life that almost got close [03:44.74]Prayin' that in another time we coulda' changed posts [03:48.05]If I could just reverse time I would [03:49.77]I don't know what I would do honestly it's not good [03:52.51]I'm sorry [03:53.20]I'm sorry [03:53.85]I'm sorry [03:54.50]I'm sorry [03:55.18]I'm sorry [03:55.78]I'm sorry [03:56.43]I'm sorry [03:57.05]I'm sorry [03:57.65]I'm sorry